Last couple of weeks

Throughout our lives, we are given assignments whether for education, work or pleasure. If you fail to complete those assignments there are consequences. The counselor gave Ron and I a very specific assignment to have completed by our next session on April 1. The assignment - to meet two times for at least 30 minutes just the two of us at a neutral location. So far we are failing. The consequence is one we will impose on ourselves - placing another brick with mortar on the wall between us or could it be something more?

I have told Ron if he wants the relationship, he will make an effort to contact me. That does not happen very often. I think the writing on the wall is becoming more visible but will anyone do anything to change it?

I celebrated my birthday this year doing a few different things. I took the day off and went with a friend to Cripple Creek. We drove up in blizzard conditions after a long board meeting. We had a good time. Lost a little money but it was worth it.

Later that evening Ron, the kids and I went to dinner at Red Lobster. It was nice and strange at the same time. I was very reluctant to go.

After dinner I went to my oldest brothers to have cake and ice cream him and my sister in law. She ordered me an orange chiffon cake. It was nice.

I did not see Ben that day. He had agreed that we would celebrate my birthday another day so I could celebrate with the kids. I did get to talk to him though.

I received some like apricot colored roses from a male friend. They look so nice in the vase on the corner of my desk. That was really sweet of him. He is also trying to teach me to bowl properly.

I started thinking back to September for Ron's birthday. The whole family - me, the boys, my brothers, my dad, my step mom, his mom and his aunt went to Texas Roadhouse. He likes that place along with Cracker Barrel. Afterwards we went back to the house. I ended up staying the night. I can not remember if we had cake or not. Probably not - I guess I messed up and did not think to do it. I had only moved out about a week before. I did take the time to buy him something though.

The next few months will be very busy - Easter, Trevor's 17th bday and Ronny's high school graduation. How things will play out, that is not known yet.