To do list

A few people have mentioned to me that I need to write down my to do list for my personal life. I have one in my mind but need to put it on paper so I can start marking those things off. Baby steps I keep telling myself. One thing at a time. One day at a time.

One of the most important things on my to do list is to become more financially independent from Ron. I do not rely on him to give me money to live off of but I do reply on him to help pay our bills. The counselor thinks it is strange the situation that Ron and I have on the bills. We put our checks in the bank and I figure out what we can pay and when, just like I did when we lived together. He goes about his daily life without worrying about having to pay any bills. That needs to stop. The counselor even told me that I need to let him fall and if I fall too that just something I will have to get over. This is the number one task on my to do list.

I have mentioned to Ron he needs his own account but he says he is OK with the way things are now. Well I am not and it is going to change.

The counselor asked me, where Ron got his male chauvinistic views from. I assume it is from his Uncle who he thinks walks on water. I never really saw that side of him until I was away from it. Now I see it a little better and I see it a little in the boys.

Its kind of funny the things people pick up from being around someone a short time. Ben has brought to my attention that I apologize a lot for little things that do not need an apology for. The counselor has also pointed out that I take some of the negative things in my life way to personal and that it is not all my fault. I did put in motion this change and that I do have ownership of.

My to do list is something that I own and will affect others whether they want it or not. One thing on my list everyday is to keep smiling and not let other influence what I choose to do.