Firsts

In our lives we have many firsts to mark milestones. It starts with our first breath then progresses through the next year with other firsts - word, tooth and steps. As we grow we encounter bigger firsts - day of school, friend, fight, crush, love and death. Each of these firsts are not to be looked at as any less than the previous they are all things to be cherished.

I have had many firsts in the last year - first apartment, first time living on my own, first time to see the ocean, first time to visit many states in one trip plus others. I have also experienced in the last few years a first that I hope many will not endure - that is the first time I fell out of love. To realize you are in a relationship where the love for your partner is not what it should be is not a good feeling. To move on is not an easy thing to do.

I am lucky in the sense that I have family and friends that have been dealing with me and my many moods. I am at the point where that chapter in my life is going to officially end and I can start a new chapter.

I have been questioned as to why now and not a year ago. My response is that a year ago, there was a chance that things could have worked out but neither one of us put ourselves out there. Now we have both moved on and why put it off any longer. Sometimes people need to have time apart to decide if they can live without the other.

I am putting myself out there once again to see if maybe in my next relationship I stay in love and that he stays in love with me.

The Summer in review

This summer I was able to go camping, boating and fishing more than I have in years. It was really fun. The only thing that would have made it better would have been if the boys would have been able to join us for a trip or two. If I have the count right, I caught like 10 fish this year. It might not seem like much to avid fishermen but for someone who hasn't caught 10 fish in the last 10 years, it is a major achievement. I am hoping next year will be better.

The house is still up in the air. I am hoping this gets resolved here pretty quick so we can know when we are moving and I can officially change my address on my license to Springs.

Gomer hasn't been feeling well and had to visit the vet. Still waiting on results of his blood work. He is on some antibiotics for now.

Ben is still being himself which I can't complain about - I enjoy him.

The boys are back in school - Ronny in college and Trevor a junior in high school.

I am looking forward to the changes that are coming my way both at work and at home. Time will tell where things ultimately end up.

We are heading to Florida on the 10th and I can't wait to venture thru the many cities, towns and states on our drive. I am anxious to meet a few more of Ben's friends and of course see this great big body of water referred to as the Atlantic. Planning on going to Daytona and Coco Beaches. Should be fun.